Saturday, June 15, 2013

Links to love

I thought I would share some things I have stumbled upon lately. Enjoy!
--Mommy/Son dates: I love all of these!! With Matthew leaving soon, its so important that I make time to spend one on one time with Jasper, like never before. To make sure he knows he is loved, he is special. I can't wait to try these out and to have a relationship wit him, that goes beyond Mama and son.
--Care Packages: I'm totally excited about all my care package ideas. I can't wait to put one together!!! Thank God for pinterest!
--Deployment Countdown: We will totally be doing this! I've got to get my tripod and remote for my camera ordered asap! I think this will be fun to look back on to she how much we all have changed. I wonder if I can talk Matthew into taking one every month...... hmmmm... We'll see!
--Birthday Plannin': She just turned 6 months. I've been pinning since about 3 months. It's gonna be rad!
--Monogrammmmed!!: I need one of these. period.

-- And because this is so stinkin' funny!

Friday, June 14, 2013

Friday Five {week 1}

I am a sucker for a real cheeseburger. You know, when it's so thick you can barely fit it in your mouth, filled with all kinds of goodness. I had Five Guys for the first time this week and I am hooked! I had a friend tell me I will "forever love it", and boy was she right!

This. oh my goodness. This is one of the sweetest pictures I've ever taken! I'm in love. It will be framed and in her room! How sweet this little picture?!?!
Jasper has always been a good sleeper, and so far so has Sara Kate. She normally gets up about 5:30, nurses and then goes back to sleep until 9-ish. This last week, however, girl has not been going back to sleep. She has been up and ready to play, bright & early! Coffee has been my best friend this week. As much as I love3 those extra hours of sleep, I'm hoping she will keep this up so that mornings will be easier when school starts back!
If it wasn't for our family, we would live in Morehead City forever. We love it here!! I'm so glad we were stationed here. We will continue to visit here for years to come! I think this place will always hold a little piece of our hearts!
Sara Kate turned 6 months old this week!! I just can't believe it!

Wednesday, June 12, 2013


{My amazing view this morning as I get is all out!}
Matthew deploys soon. I am overcome with emotions. I haven't blogged since before we moved back to Georgia, but this morning it just seemed like the right thing to do. To get it out. To write it down. Get it out of my head and onto paper (more or less). I needed to write out my feelings and thoughts this morning.

I'm sad we won't get to spend holidays together. If you know me, you know that any holiday is a big holiday. I love holidays. We will miss each others birthdays, Fourth of July, both of our anniversaries (yes, I am that person who still celebrates their dating anniversary!), Labor Day, Thanksgiving, Sara Kate's birthday and possibly Christmas and New Years.

I'm sad Matthew is going to miss out on so much of Sara Kate's first year. I'm nervous to see how Jasper is going to respond to Matthew leaving. I'm worried about what Matthew will see and experience over there. I'm praying. Praying for everything. Praying for all the things I will go through. All the things Matthew will go through. Praying for Jasper and his sweet little heart. That God will put him at ease when he just doesn't understand. Praying that God will show me how to respond. Praying that Sara Kate will take to Matthew when he gets home. Like no time has passed at all.

I am so thankful we have been able to spend some much time together the past month. Matthew was home on leave May 17th-31st and We have been in North Carolina with him since June 4th. It has been so good for us. We needed it. Our babies needed it. Matthew needed it. I needed it. It would have been so hard to have only been with him a day or so before he left, which is what we had originally planned. We were so blessed to have had friends who opened up their home to our family.

This morning I've been praying myself through all the emotions. Trying not to let my mind wonder. Trying to think of all the good things this deployment is going to bring. Thinking about how wonderful homecoming is going to be. Trying to remember that this is going to make us stronger. It's going to draw us closer. Closer to each other and closer to God. I can't wait to see how God shows his self to us through this deployment. I'm trying to focus on the fact that this is our ticket out of the Marine Crops.!

I am overwhelmed at the fact that even when deployment is over, we still won't be back together.

Matthew will still have a year left when he gets back. He will still be at Cherry Point, but, as of right now, the kids and I will be staying in Georgia until he gets out and comes home for good. Is this a crazy decision? Yes. Are we still praying about it? heck yes! However, in the long run, we feel that it will be best for our family.

I'm not sure what the future holds for us. I do know that He is good. He will provide whatever it is that we need. Strength. Peace. Joy. anything and everything. He will work all things for our good. He is faithful.

Jasper says {vs.2}

--Jesus says ____ or Jesus wants us______. His favorite is "Jesus wants us to be nice". I'm sure I have said this to him before & he just picked it up and ran with it! He also will tell you, when your doing something he doesn't like that "Jesus doesn't want us to do that". He is a smart boy! I can't help but laugh every time he comes up with something new that "Jesus wants".

--"Mama... You know what?". And boy does he sound so cute saying it. However, I hear it about 100+ times a day. Anytime he wants something, or wants to tell me something, this always comes out first!

--"You're the best". Talk about melting your heart. He sometimes adds, "you're the best Mama ever" or "you're the best Daddy ever". He now expects us to say back, "You're the best Jasper ever"! ;)

--"What you said?". Ha. this is one of our favorites! This is normally said if he is confused about something you said to him; of course in a confused little voice. It's the cutest thing!

--"What's this thing wigglin', Mama?" (While playing with his "jewels", in the bath tub.) HA. This one, I thought I was going to dying from laughter. This is one of those embarrassing stories we'll tell his future wife. ;) 

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

ready or not.

We move in six days. I'm all kinds of emotions right now. I'm so excited about going home for a few months. I'm excited about being able to go shopping with my mama on her days off. I'm excited about being back at Central. I'm so ready to do best friend things with my best friends. I'm excited Jasper will get to attend Central's per-school. I'm so glad I'll be able to have babysitters whenever I want them & not feel guilty about it. I'm glad we will be surrounded with our families again. I'm excited about being able to spend more time with my sisters.

I'm heartbroken that Matthew doesn't get to share in my excitement. I'm sad he will miss so much over the next year. I feel guilty for being so excited about going home, when it means we will be apart from him. I feel guilty that he has to be away from his children, but I don't.

I'm scared to see how Jasper reacts when he realizes Daddy isn't going to be with us all the time, like he has gotten use to. I'm scared Sara Kate won't know her Daddy like she should.

I'm sad. I'm excited. I'm scared. I'm unsure. I'm determined.

And the most important thing? I'm positive. That's the kind of person I always am. At times I may feel like my world is falling apart, but I don't let it show. Not because I'm trying to hide my feelings, but because I won't let the devil win. If I let myself get beat down & let my emotions get the best of me, I am the one that suffers. My children suffer. My marriage suffers. I refuse to be anything but happy. No matter what, you will see a smile on my face.

We will get through this, just like we have before. My God is faithful & he will see us through.